My Health Story

It was August 2022, and I was lying in a hospital bed in the ER. My fingers and toes were numb, my chest was tight, my heart was racing. I had never felt so disconnected from my body, and I was terrified.

They ran every test they could based on my symptoms. Every test came back fine. I was the picture of health, but I wanted so badly to hear something was wrong with me so that I didn't have to take responsibility for the truth I was about to hear.

It was a panic attack, and I was on day five. For five days, my body was stuck in fight or flight. I couldn't eat, function or breathe. I was immobile. I fell victim to my symptoms and was at rock bottom.

One month later, I came across my spiritual group Project Awakening, which I am still active in today. My teacher Astara Raven taught me it is through the darkness that we can see the light and reconnect with our hearts.

This was my breakthrough. My physical symptoms weren't there to cause me pain and suffering, they were sent as love letters from my heart, showing me I had disconnected not from my body but from my soul's inner knowing, divinity and love for life.

The following three months were the hardest minutes, hours, days, weeks and months of my life. I addressed the root cause of my physical symptoms bio-individually and multi-dimensionally, and at the root of it all was unresolved trauma. I grew up in tense, unsafe environments. Therefore, I felt tense and unsafe within my own home — my body.

I had to relearn, reprogram and redefine the term "home" by finding peace, safety and security within my own body. As a recovering perfectionist resulting from abandonment, I let go of the desire to hold onto what was no longer working for me:

Counting macros, working out in ways I didn't enjoy, surrounding myself with toxic friends and intimate relationships, suppressing trauma and emotions, taking pharmaceutical drugs and staying in an unfulfilling job.

I turned to my inner compass to guide me on what is working for me in the present moment:

Counting chemicals, prioritizing gut health, intuitive eating and movement, surrounding myself with positive and inspiring people, addressing my trauma by feeling and accepting myself as I am, getting off birth control and all pharmaceutical drugs and quitting my job to fulfill my soul's mission.

In shedding layers of shame, guilt, limiting beliefs, self-doubt, unhealed trauma and fear, I in turn lost the weight I had gained. That's what happens when you uncover and address the root causes of symptoms rather than trying to solely treat the symptoms. You set yourself free and are given your innate soulutions for healing.

Education and Certifications

Institute for Integrative Nutrition, Integrative Nutrition Health Coach

Inner Space Academy w/ Astara Raven, student of the cosmos

My Philosophy

We are spiritual beings with human bodies as our vehicles, reincarnated to learn lessons, fulfill our mission and love one another along the way. It is through the human condition that we have the honor of living as multi-dimensional beings through the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual realms. With the human experience comes the physical symptoms that exist.

When we become out of touch with our bodies, we become out of trust with our bodies. And when we neglect the love letters from our souls, symptoms are reflected in our bodies. The love letters start as a whisper from the soul, our inner knowing. When neglected, the message gets louder in our minds, resulting in overthinking, stress and anxiety. If the message still cannot get through, this is when the physical symptoms manifest in our bodies.

They are a test to return to our inner knowing, our inner compass. Just as a monarch can sense direction through a magnetic compass within on their yearly migration, as can we. The body is the compass and the symptoms are the coordinates telling us where to go.

The butterfly effect rests on the notion that the world is deeply interconnected, such that one small occurrence can influence a much larger complex system. Acceptance of the interconnectedness among the four dimensions of health — physical, mental, emotional and spiritual — is what brings sustainable transformation and change.

To heal, we must start at the root, the core, the soul. Bringing awareness to our beliefs brings forth the stories we tell ourselves and where, what, who, why, and how they are. This allows the core of our wounds and being to open up in vulnerability, ready to break out of its cocoon and fly beyond the patterns in which those wounds have shown up in our lives physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

We all have our blueprints, impulses, instincts and genetics that make up the stories we hold onto, but there is no better time than now to rewrite your story into one that better serves yourself and others.

There is big magick within you — there always has been — despite anyone or anything that has ever made you feel small. It's time to reconnect with your internal compass, transform into your most authentic way of being and spread your wings to fly toward your deepest desires awaiting your return back to home in your body.

The 4 Stages of Transformation

"There's a time to land and be still, and there's a time to spread your wings and take flight." — MK

Egg

Blueprint
Impulses
Instincts
Genetics

Cocoon

Action
Preparation
Imposter Syndrome
Patience

Catepillar

Breaking Point
Breakthrough
Awakening
Ego Death

Butterfly

Metamorphosis
Taking Flight
Power Activation
Reconnection

Why the Monarch Butterfly?

Monarchs have historically served as a symbol of trust, strength, endurance, spirituality, transformation and evolution. They fly high in the clouds in cosmic connection with the sun through their antennas and the earth's magnetic field through their internal compass every fall for their 2,500-mile journey to the south for hibernation. Even on the cloudiest of days, monarchs find their way using their own inner light, knowing and truth to guide them in the right direction.

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